I am sure every mother has this dilemma when you have one child that is exceptionally ahead the learning curve
and the other one is delayed across the board,
you get split in 2 and end up feeling guilty no matter which child you give attention to the other is needed you too.
AGHHH!! My heart is so torn, my desire to homeschool was ingrained into every fiber of my being even before I had children and now that I have them, it is even stronger. Yet with with son who has CCM genetic disorder it is mind-boggling to me to include him so my husband and I agreed to enroll him into a preschool especially for children experiencing a variety of delays. Now, Izak is the pier who the other children will "look" up to as he isn't experiencing as severe delays as the other children.
This decision doesn't help take the guilt away, it only compounds it especially when I see him doing so well since he was enrolled.
I feel so ashamed that I couldn't help in the way the therapists and early interventionists are able to. I know that I need to be looking at this from a different angle,
such as this is ABOUT what is BEST for MY SON and not my ego or plans...
It is a HUGE struggle for me to not view this as an epic failure on my part that I am not a good enough mom because I can't seem to get the results they can.
I am pure jealous, I ain't gonna lie to ya, I don't want to miss out on him learning things, I want to BE the one who sees him "GET IT" and celebrate with him as he gives that smile he does when he is proud of himself, I want to be the one who sees it that! It is gut wrenching and heartbreaking to me that I can't...I have an older daughter who needs me as & I can't bring her with me to class even if I could be a room mom.
On top of this I transitioned into a new career, Social Media Specialist. Right now I am holding the position of Social Media Director and in charge of the all things Social online for the salon I worked at for 21 years. I am developing a strategy and Special SWAT team members to help implement the plans. So a lot of time is there.
Along with a ministry called "Sisters for the Journey". Which was started by my bestie about 3 or 4 years ago and is starting to really grow, we started a Blog and have a face book page and several events throughout the year. The goal is to unite women regardless of their denomination and release them in their calling for Christ. Our biggest event is the Princess Ball which will be taking place this Saturday, May 4th, I will be the featured speaker a role I don't take lightly and am grateful for.
On April 22 one of key board member's son was struck head on by a vehicle while he was driving his motorcycle. Thankfully Jerod had his helmet on, however he has had a massive brain injury and has had 3 surgeries to date and is being heavily sedated because of the pain. His mother is planning on bringing him back home to OHIO to start therapy at Cleveland Clinic which is #1 in the nation according to the surgeon at MT. Cedar Sinai in California for head injuries. The ball has turned into a fundraiser to help the family with medical expenses while Jerod heals.
Happy Mother's Day
Here are some cool blogs I found for you awesome gifts as part of my repentance for not posting lately!!
LEFT IS A GREAT DIY MOTHER'S DAY GIFT FOR THE KIDS TO HELP WITH. WHAT MOTHER OR GRANDMOTHER DOESN'T LOVE ANYTHING WITH THE KIDS' HAND PRINTS ON THEM?? THESE ARE SOO ADORABLE IDEAS THAT I HAVEN'T SEEN BEFORE!! CHECK THEM OUT!!
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